At this very moment the nurses are suctioning her again, but for the first time in days she is protesting. She just slammed her fist on the bed and I am pretty sure she wants to punch our sweet nurse. I never thought frustrated baby could sound so amazing!
We still aren't sure what the next little bit will bring, but we are trusting that the Lord to be everything for Livi that none of us can be for her. Difficult times like these bring us to the end of ourselves and face to face with what should be obvious: We are not God. In accepting this we have the patience to wait on the Lord to reveal himself to us in our trials. Relinquishing control is liberating and allows us to take our rightful place as dependent children in the hands of a sovereign, loving, and powerful Father who is working all things out for his glory and our good. On that note, I will close with a quote shared with me by one of our dear friends here in KC:
"Whatever your circumstances, however difficult they may be, the truth is that they are ordained by God for you as a part of his overall plan for your life. God does nothing, or allows nothing without a purpose. And his purposes, however mysterious and inscrutable they may be to us, are always for his glory and our ultimate good." - Jerry Bridges, Respectable Sins
Thanks for your prayers. We'll post more soon.